New guest book done specially for SMKA Alumni Gathering with pink & green as color theme which as their symbolic color. The size of book is 10" x 12" and consist of +-50 pages with custom layout.
here is my world... world which is so small compared to the other created world by Allah... Subhanallah....
Ari nie start early morning... And hubby cam biasa pagi raya memang tak dapat la nak solat raya sebab juadah & persiapan menyambut tetamu belum ready... Pepagi lagi dah mandikan bebudak... Mandi & bersiap... Tidurkan DD dulu... Pasang "Powerpuff Girls" untuk BB. Pastu terus ke dapur siang sayur, ayam, daging, rendam bihun... Untuk buat bihun goreng bagi juadah pagi raya, selain ketupat, rendang & kuih-kuih. Buat air sebekas besar, susun kuih dalam balang cantik kat meja depan... Panaskan lauk2 pagi tadi... Pastu layan DD & BB, hubby continue cooking... Baru dok nak makan... Tetamu da sampai... Dan seterusnya sehingga jam 9.00 malam tadi... Baru bole landing jap. Tapi pinggan mangkuk dok berkapaq... Aih... Kene kemas dulu... Da tak larat tapi... So... Kemaskan la sikit dulu, susun2... lap2... Basuh esok pagi la... Da tak larat dah... Adik ipar pun da sakit2 kaki, hubby lagi la... Da satu badan sakit... Sb dia da 2 hari tak berenti... A day before luar dalam rumah habis dicucinya... Aku just tolong-tolong jer sebab nak buat semua yang kotor tu susah nak pegang & susukan DD plak... Hubby tak bagi pun... Bertuahnya badan dapat hubbyku terchenta nie... :) jadi, itulah kisah hari ini... Nanti upload gambar raya plak... :)
Tahun nie dok umah mertua jadi tak der la membeli sangat... Tapi mak & ayah mertua membeli jugak la.. Nak raya kan... Carpet baru... Bunga baru... Motor baru... Aiii... Kalau bole semua nak baru bila raya nie kan...??
Tahun nie patut balik Kelantan tapi macam tak akan kesampaian jer... Walaupun da rindu nak balik & makan makanan klate... Rindu famili... Tak balik sebab mak tak sihat... Kesian pulak nak tunggal lama-lama balik raya klate... Tak tahu la lagi cam ne nie... :'(
Raya tahun nie lebih meriah dari tahun lepas... Alhamdulillah rezeki anak2. :)
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Muhammad (محمد) : Praiseworthy - name of the Last Prophet
Daanish (دانش) : Wisdom, Learning, Science
Daniel (دانیال) : Intelligent
Moga anakku membesar dan berbudi pekerti seperti namanya... Amin.
Baby & kids.
Design 01: motorcycle diaper cake. Consist of 3 romper, 1 set pyjamas, 1 set mittens, 1 set booties, 1 small hand towel, 2 bibs, 1 bottle, 1 pacifier & 6 huggies ultra dipers. Price starts from RM180 to RM400 depending on items brand. *Teddy bears are sold separately.
Design 02: Flower Bucket. Consist of 1 romper, 1 bib, 1 set mittens, 1 set booties & 6 huggies ultra diapers. Price range from RM40 to RM100.
Design 03: New Walker. Consist of 1 romper, 1 hooded swaddle, 1 headband, 1 pair of socks & 1 pair of shoes. Price range from RM100 to RM250.
Design 04: Baby Blossom. Consist of 1 small tin of newborn formula milk, 3 romper & 2 pairs of socks. Price range from RM130 to RM400.
Type of hamper/gift:
1. Birthday
2. Anivessary
3. Aidilfitri
4. Newborn / baby/ kids
5. Wedding
6. Etc
*all items are exclude postal or delivery charges.
Here I would love to share my medical experience with a government hospital in Alor Setar, Kedah. Since, this is my first experience using the facility.I was admitted on 7th June 2011 due to water breaking. My husband send me to the hospital from our house. The journey took us about 45 minutes to 1 hour. Compared to last time labour experience, the journey from house to hospital only took 5 minutes. It was very near & short journey. My water break at 8.00am and we arrived at the hospital at about 9.20am. I was held up at registration & check-up until about 4.00pm, to get a bed in ward. My family has to wait in the waiting room since then.

After the announcement, I went out to see my hubby & Balqis. Then, we went to the canteen for food. We had nasi ayam and air bandung.
At canteen eating
Later, I went to the same place again to continue waiting & my family waiting in the waiting room. Then at about 4.00pm a nurse called my name. Saying I got a bed. Then we followed the nurse to the ward. In the ward husbands are not allowed except for visiting hours, so does childrens. So they can see me only at 12.30pm - 2.00pm and 4.30pm - 7.30pm. So that day, they are with me from 4.30pm until 7.30pm. Before that they are not allowed, they are pushed out after sending me to ward. Still have no contraction.
On my bed waiting for the time
Later came a doctor checking and asking a few questions. Then he ask me to sign a form for induce if there is no contraction after 12 hours from time the "waters breaking" as a procedure. My hubby also need to sign the form. After explaining the conditions and effects, I agreed and sign the form. But deep in my heart still hopping I do not need those medication (induce) since it has side effect on my baby.
At 10.00pm, I start to feel strong contractions. Which is about 15-20 minutes apart. Then at about 1.00am the contraction become stronger and I ask for checkup of the opening when the contractions are about 10 minutes apart. I ask a nurse, "Do I need any checkup? Since my contractions is already 10 minutes apart". The nurse ask me back, "Masuk sini tak kene check ker?. I replied, "Tak". That nurse I ask before doesn't came back after saying to me, she will get back to me later. Then, I asked the same questions to another nurse that came to me to check my BP. The same answer I get and no feedback.
Timer to check on my contraction
Later, I feel the contractions getting stronger and I pushed the RED button. A nurse said to me, "Awat dah sakit sangat ka?", sambil buat muka. "Yes", I replied. Then she ask me to come to the examination room in front of their counter. The nurse said to me, "Ala baru 2cm", with muka sinis. I replied back, "Lambatnya kali nie nak bersalin," in sarcastic voice tone.
The nurse are very rude and has no respect of others. Making fun of me in pain. As if, aku jer yang tak than sakit & mengada-ngada. I hate what they did to me. I just keep quiet in my bed and pray to Allah for safety and smooth delivery.
Later, at about 3.00am I feel the contraction & pain that I can't speak off. And I just keep quite in my bed coz I don't want to face that same situation again. Then a nurse came to me and ask me, "Sakit dah ker?". I just nod. She ask me wether I can walk to examination room or not. I nod again. In my heart, "Alhamdulillah, Allah temukan aku dengan nurse ini". She checked and it's already 4 cm. Then she said I will be pushed to labour room now. She ask me to bring along baby's clothes and my begs, also to inform my hubby.
My hubby arrive about 15 minutes later with my daughter. They were waiting for me in the car at car park behind the hospital. The nurses were still chit-chatting, while I'm in wheelchair and hubby & daughter beside me. Then, hubby ask, "Ini macam mana? Nak saya tolak ke labour room ke?", a sarcastic question was trown. Then, baru nak bergerak. They pushed me to labour room at about 3.30am. Hubby & daughter was asked to wait in the waiting room.
I was arrived at delivery room section at about 3.45am. In the labour room section, I was put in front of registration counter for about 10-15 minutes. Then, I was pushed to a labour room and put me on bed. They put on wire to monitor contractions & baby's heart beat. The room seems to be "berselerak" belum berkemas. Later, still struggling in pain. Suddenly, feels great pain and like baby is coming out. I search for RED button. But there's none. While I hold on. I search for somebody passing by, also nobody. Later, I see on lady in blue suite passing by, I called and said, "sakit! Nak bersalin". That lady was panic and rushing get me ready for labour. I was not being prepared before. Maybe they assume I will not deliver this sudden. I heard she ask me, "Rasa nak berak ke?". "Nak keluar!", I replied. In seconds, I feel like baby gone out and feeling my tummy empty, after gush of water. Then heard baby's cry and she hold up the baby in front of my face to confirm baby sex and put a tag. I saw the wall clock showing it's 4.30am. Another nurse came and take my baby out of the room. She continue to take off the "uri" out. Then stitched me. She done stitching at about 5.00am. At 5.30am a nurse came in with my baby to be breastfeed. My baby suck his first milk. Alhamdulillah, again Allah meets me with this experience & nice lady to help me deliver. At 6.00am a doctor came to check my baby. I was on labour room bed until 8.00am, waiting for an empty bed. But not regular bed, "katil lipat" at a corner in front of toilet door. The ward was full.
Later, we were discharge at 5.30pm although my baby still didn't poo. This is due to not enough bed and good health condition of both of us. Alhamdulillah... Boleh balik. Cian Balqis & hubby doesn't have proper sleep & meal. Balqis pun dah nak demam da, sebab tak cukup rehat.
All the way my hubby's face was in panic & worry. I tried to comfort him & ask him to drive slow, because I don't feel the baby is coming out yet, because there was no pain at all. Just my back pain since starting of second trimester. He was mumbling on the road condition and unethical car drivers that cutting queues and drive like orang mabuk. Balqis, doesn't stop asking, "mama, kita nak gi mana?". Me: "Kita nak gi hospital, adik baby da nak keluar. Nanti Balqis dok ngan ayah ok? Sebab doktor tak bagi budak-budak masuk tempat mama masuk. Ok?". She replied, "Ok", with a smiling face. I was hopping everything will be ok, since Balqis is still breastfeed and very attach to me. And thinking, how Balqis will going to sleep at night without breastfeed & I'm sure she will be sad & cranky because we had to be saperated. Napela hospital tak benarkan anak & hubby tinggal je dalam bilik wad tu? kalau dok wad satu bilik. The journey took us about 45 minutes from our house. Jauhkan? Alhamdulillah, Tuhan tak bagi aku sakit bersalin macam Balqis dulu.
At the emergency lounge Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah. Hubby went to get a wheelchair for me. Then he push me to second floor the delivery section, with Balqis walking beside my wheelchair. At the registration counter, hubby was asking for husband friendly labour room. I was pushed for examination. Inside, the nurse came to check my BP & baby condition. I was informed that my bukaan is 2cm. Then a young doctor came for checking. She said that my baby is sleeping... Memang time tido pun. Then, they try to wake the baby... By tolak baby on my tummy... But baby keep sleeping. Then she tried to usik my baby's head by inserting her hand. My baby move up moving away from her. I don't feel good about this, and I don't feel the necessity of doing that. If the baby doesn't want to go out wet why forcing? Even I don't feel any pain nor contraction. Why? But who am I to argue... What I can do only pray to Allah for our safety. That's what I did since I know I was pregnant. Because I heard a lot of negative stories about hospital kerajaan. I was examine & experiment (I would say) about 3 hours. Then I was ask for blood take and wait to be called for ward.
Then came a young guy doctor for blood take. Alhamdulillah, tak sakit and he manage to fine my vein kat lengan. Tak macam time pregnant kat Klinik kesihatan, nurse amik darah tak pernah dapat jumpa, pastu last-last amik kat atas tangan. Kali pertama cucuk berkali-kali.. Sakit wei... Second time, I cakap terus kat lengan susah cari amik jer kat atas tangan. Sebab tak mau jadi cam hari tu sakit. Nurse lain pulak amik darah... Katanya nurse besar, apa term diorang pakai ek, aku lupa plak... Ok kot aku pikir, tak sakit.. tapi tekaan aku meleset sama sekali... Bukan sahaja sakit, tangan aku lebam & bengkak sebab amik darah. Apala dia buat kat aku. Teruk betul... Pastu bila tanya, kenapa jadi cam tu... Jawapan tak menjawap soalan langsung! Jawapan mengelak dari tanggungjawap jer. "sebab puan tak tekan kapas kuat-kuat lepas amik darah tu." Sedap jer dia jawap... Sama jer aku tekan setiap kali amik darah, nie bukan pertama kali. Siot jer!
Continue story balik... Then at about 1.00pm came a nurse and announce. All patients bole keluar makan dulu... Pukul 2 datang balik. Kalau cakap awal2 kan bagus. Da la dari pagi x makan, anak & laki aku kat luar pun sure tunggu kerisauan kat luar tu. Confirm tak makan lagi tu! Teruk betulla...!!
Ok... For time being kita stop dulu... My baby da nangis lapar :) We continue later....





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For All the Mothers Out There
Most of the time I take this for granted, but I am truly blessed to be working where I am. Sure, the long hours, the lack of sleep, the constant worry that I'll screw up and kill somebody have taken their toll on me, but I also get to see miracles. Miracles of life, miracles of death, miracles of recovery when the prognosis is bleak. Above all these, however, is the miracle of mothers who love their children unconditionally.
I have conducted deliveries before, and I have performed Cesarean Sections. Not many people can say the same. Even so, I cannot even imagine, much less comprehend the agony a mother goes through during childbirth. But it doesn't stop there. A mother willingly sacrifices a part of herself to raise her children, to protect them, to nurture them, to prepare them for a brighter future than what she has.
So what brought about this sudden appreciation to mothers? Almost a month ago I operated on a young lady who was a road-traffic accident victim. Her brain injury was severe, and I didn't think she'd ever wake up, much less function normally again. Her mother was hovering by her side, tears threatening to escape her eyes, gaze darting about when not focusing on her daughter. Before we wheeled the patient in, we let the mother kiss her. She needed to do it. She kept on whispering the same words over again, like a chant. A mantra. And her voice broke; she cried. Then she looked at me, her eyes sharp. "Selamatkan anak saya, doktor," she pleaded. Save my daughter, doctor.
I ended up doing two surgeries on the patient, the latter a major life-saving procedure. Every single day after the first encounter, the mother would run up to me whenever she saw me, asking how her daughter was. I even had to use a different route to get to the ICU because I had nothing new to tell her, and that was breaking my heart.
Four days later, the patient woke up. She was unable to speak, but she obeyed commands. When I found this out, both the parents were by the patient's bedside, and they thanked me profusely. I still don't know why they did; I only did my part, my job, standard surgeries for head-injury patients. The patient woke up all by herself, with the help of her mother, who stayed by her side every chance she got, who held her hands and whispered words only a mother and her daughter would understand, who in her eyes, a grown woman had become her newborn baby once again.
That afternoon I sat back and watched as the mother showed the patient family photos, cooed her to lift an arm, coaxed her to sip from a straw. She used gentle words, kind words, words a mother typically use to persuade a toddler to take his medicine. And every day after that, she approached me to inform me how her daughter was recuperating.
Then there was another instance last night. I was reviewing a patient who was waiting for surgery when I overheard a lady instructing the nurse to do this and that for her son. The nurse, a new(ish) staff, was at a loss. After reviewing my patient, I took a quick look at the other patient, whose mother was making a fuss. He was one of my patients when he had been in the ICU, a teenager, another road-traffic accident victim. The collar he wore was three sizes too big, and for his injury, it was as good as not wearing a collar at all. I asked the nurse to get one of a proper size from the ICU. When the mother saw me instructing the nurse, she bombarded me with questions and demands. I wasn't in a hurry, so I stood opposite her, with the semi-conscious patient between us, and answered her questions the best I could.
After a few minutes, her voice quavered, and she struggled to keep herself from crying. While caressing the boy's face, she told me that she had never gone through this before. She left the sentence hanging, open-ended. I knew what her silence indicated. She was afraid, she was worried sick, she wanted for her son to wake up again. That moment, she stopped becoming a demanding family member, and revealed herself as a mother who felt helpless for not being able to do anything for her son. I didn't have the heart to confirm her fears; part of me is still wishing he will wake up soon.
Throughout my short years in Neurosurgery, I bore witness to mothers taking care of their comatose children. I even published a story along this line. They don't seem to care if their children will never wake up, so long as they get to care for them. Among my most heart-wrenching experiences: telling a mother that her son or daughter had just passed away. It never gets easier. In fact, the more I learn in this field, the harder it gets. What if our best wasn't good enough?
To top it off, whenever I go through such instances, I think about my own mother, how lost I will be if I ever lose her. I get angry when she complains of new pains and aches; those are signs of aging, and she's not supposed to age. She's supposed to be here for all eternity. She's always wistful when she talks about wanting high pillars at the porch, but what she doesn't realize is that she already is one, the single strong pillar in my life, in the lives of my siblings.
For all the times I've broken her heart, for all the times I've made her cry, I hope my mother knows how blessed Kasha, Faiz and I are to have her.
For making me what I am today, I love you, Mama.
I love you mama... I'm thankfull for what i am now, coz of you.
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Daun Kadok (Betel Leaves)
Pucuk ubi (Tapioca Shoots)
Daun cekur manis (Sweet Leaf)
Pucuk paku merah
Pucuk paku hujau
Kangkong (Water Spinach)
Daun Kesom (Polygonum Leaves)
Daun kunyit (Tumeric Leaves)